i know that i havent been on this forever mostly because at one time i thought it was a huge waste of time just to write what you did during every freaking day ..just typing day after day after day. i thought that xanga was a place for all of those "comp nerds" to go to even though myspace is too. anywho..i just wanted to tell all of my friends what i have learned this year with the most recent which has been happening ..well for about 6 months

i was scouted while i was running one day during p.e one of those days before amen and  i got sick of running and making the 5 under 15 that way we could get credit for 6. since i was scouted i was invited to join the cross country/ track team. they told me that i was skinny, i look very healthy and they mostly liked that i had " strong" legs which made me run faster somehow. at that moment i  was extremelly excited as some of you really close to me might know. i was like holy shit im gonna be part of the sports curriculum of esperanza high school i have the chance of even getting an scholarship, plus i will be even more involved in school which looks great in collegue applications. then i had it all..i was spoiled..i got everything that i wanted or ever crossed my mind. i thought. i have wonderful friends who i know will always will be there for me. i have a great mom and an okay family which will be there for me on my hard days. i have an awesome boyfriend who is kinda funky but hey its all good. i never really thought until like 3-2 months ago on what saving money really was. i got payed 40 dollars and BOOM like they came they went i got whatever i wanted without really giving shit about anything. then my mom lost her job. shes been okay the whole family has been okay maybe its because it brought us closer to each other plus shes been in a lil thing over here or on a thing over there which has kept us all pretty good. i became more mature in that aspect because i was more mature towards my cousins, i started studying even more since i was allready giving up on school cuz it was gonna end soon. but just a month ago i was asked to join the crosscountry team once again. last time i was asked i just let it go because i was like nah w/e im used to p.e even though mr. hill is an asshole who cares. but then i began to jog.. and i jogged every day after school around 4 1/2 miles making each time faster and stopping less which i continue to improve to this day. but now i know that what i have learned is too late. because i was a fucking stupid bitch who spended all her fucking money on clothes and now that i truly want something because i know that ill do good and that i will enjoy it im not gonna be able to do it. i asked and begged my mom to just let me borrow some money that way i could cover part of the fee for cross country but she said no. so i began to save money every lil penny i have gotten has been saved and now i have around 80 dollars or so but i started too late. and now even though i have saved all that money which i have had to lower myself to stupid lil brats who humiliate you practicly to make themselves feel better is too late. i have to sign up as soon as possible and im not going to be able to do it. so if your reading this. think about it. save all your money and only spend it if you truly truly have to because at the end you will be able to reach your dreams unlike me. my only good dream that didnt intend of buying a new LV bag or a bunch of outfits from abercrombie has been practicly broken because tomorrow as of June 24 friday im gonna write to coach medellin that i cant be in cross country because i dont have enough money. which sucks a lot of ass if you truly think about it. but somehow i hope that this experience will make me stronger and that i will know what to do next time. and hopefully i will be able to join it when i go to esperanza as a junior.

i hope that everyones summer has been going well. i had the chance so far of going to the movies by taking my lil neighbor leila on one of our babysitting nights and to the beach with my mom and my cousins. other than that..ive been working ..jogging and swimming.

jess i hope that youre doing awesome in that math class that youre taking with all of those collegue people. as you see i know what all of you do because everyday i still read on my email the ah so great xanga subscriptions.

now im going to go to sleep since i had a very long day .

i hope you all have a great summer filled with memories.

til who knows when i write on this thing again which needs a new layout and song.

carolina.

WOW I HAVENT BEEN ON THIS FOR....EVER!!!!

anywho...spring break babay! anywho..skool after school and during second period are always the best...or ask jess or amen..seriously tho..like with the laughing..the loosing streak going on with our ghetto team..tom fighting with branden and amen..narut and i going schoooppang with the staters cart ahh..that just all says good times all over it..then..then..um..oh ya then 4th and 6th period roll along...can ya say...SING TO ME IN COLOMBIAN?! hahahahah or or...like...watch it colombian! hahahahha good ones goood ones..then 5th period passes..and i seat on my 420 desk (seriously in munsell you could probably get away with murder in that class) anywho..then we all walk around singing on our way to 6th by the bridge..IM  PREEETTTTIIII FLOOWERRR! HA..anywho...just remembering that gets me all excited ah...but yeah..then 6th period rolls along..amen..silvana..carolini..abd brent all go into class..then we see john baek running back and forth  from a car back to the class then miz curran going psyco and laughing her lil ass off..then daniel or dane trying to diss me or amen and amen is like to the border of jumping off her desk to hit them...me talking to timmy and our lil convos..hahahaha robert getting threaten by that one homegirl that can actually tell her mom to fuck off and she doesnt get in trouble..i would serioulsy wouldnt have a face the next day if i did that..but anywho..brent with his lil ice tea..

::thrusday::

carol..holy crap brent..wheres your ice tea? since when are you on apple juice?

brent...uh..im on a diet..

carol..lmao

::friday::

brent walks in with a fruit punch minute maid to l.a..

carol..so youre still on a diet?

brent..what are you talking about ive never been on a diet..diets are stupid.

carol..sure buddy you were on one yesterday

brent..oh yeah..ah well..i did it cuz ice tea was sold out..

hahahahaha

yesterday taking pics in class was awesome..amen all posing..and attacking brent lmao.

then after skool..SPANKERS UNITED BABAY!!!!

oh ya oh ya hahah amen spanked me so hard that it like made my leg fall asleep while miz piggy just laughed her lil ass off..then i chaze amen and i spank her really hard..taking pics with my peepz was awesome..we should do it more often..anywho gtg cuz im leavin..no shit..hahahah naywho yeah..tata.

hey! i updated again..anywho..i been really busy..tons of things are going on...so ya..oh yes..i also kinda forgot i even had a xanga for a while...my bad..anywho..finally yes! we are in winter break! thank god!! this past week has probably been the most stressful week of the whole damn year..i havent been able to study cause of the damn 3 1/2 projects that i had to do so i wasnt able to study for my biology test..what happens...i get 39/89..sad..but yes..it happened all because i totally messed up on the damn back..seriously mr.peach doesnt explain things..how the hell were we supposed to know we had to put the x y and x x on it?! good ness...but everything was okay at the end..i turned in my projects..hopefully i did them right..or else ill die for sure.. christmas got totally ruined for us..now my mom is like whatever ..screw christmas this year..but the house still is the damn winterwonderland..were still getting the presents and having the good ol new years party ..but my moms "christmas spirit" is extremelly low..sucks..anywho..is kinda cool that this year is sunny for winter break..cause usually is freakin cold..too bad that it didnt snow like we were wishing it was going to...dang it..anywho..i hope that everyone has an awesome and adorable christmas..ill try to and i hope everyone liked their presents (michelle i still need to give you yours since you were absent on friday.) and thank you everyone soo much for the adorable presents!! i love ya guys!

Je t'aime..Carolina

wow..yesterday was a freaking long day lol..woke up..cleaned the room..well..a lil..lmao..too lazy..too cold..= me extremelly lazy..anywho.ate..hung around the house for a couple of hours..watched tv and ate breakfast in bed..awww i should do it more often..sooo nice..so cuddlely in my bed..damn it i should be home skooled that way i could wait..i should be bed skooled lmao..allright..that doesnt sound right lmao. anywho..when were having these kind of days like when its all coudly and cold and windy..there shouldnt be skool..that way you could just stay in bed,watch tv,listen to music and EAT! muhahaha the whoooole damn day...ahh..that would be the best.hahah im such a lazy ass...anywho then i went online for a lil..then i started playing around psp7 ahhh nice program omg..usually when you buy it its like damn 200+ or something like that..heheh..i downloaded it from limewire hehehe..clever me..lmao anywho so im all into it and you can make skins and banners and stuffz like that..so im learning..im all into it now..then tooked a shower and got ready for alex's birthday..my next door naighbor lol..got there..hung around..pissed cuz my mom volunteered me to help clean up after the party...once again..me lazy..anywho..ate..while i was eating i was like..omg..its sooo cold..and i had one of my new jackets on..the one that i think i look like in from the northpole or that im a skimo or something like that lol..i was shivering i couldnt even eat..so i ate all in a hurry and went inside..(the party was outside lol logic lol) anywho i was in the family room (the house is the same model as mine so it gets confusing at times cuz like if im gonna get a plate or some utensils or something i look where they would be at home..so it gets really confusing lol) anywho i was just sitting there text messeging and stuff and there was this guy watching tv..i think it was like the animal planet or something like that..i dont know..i wasnt paying attention at all..me busy text messeging..anywho then he turned where i was and he was all explaining me the show and what was going on..(i didnt underestand anything of what the hell the show was) he was all like..dont you think this show is fake?(O_o?) like look how he's holding the anaconda and how the anaconda is not moving?(O_O) dont you think its fake?(o_O?)man..do you know where the amazon is? (yes..o_O..)and a bunch of questions like that after he explained me the show..and still i had nooo clue..so what do you do when you have no clue what so ever? NOD AND SMILE!LMAO..AH MAN..LMAO....anywho..then sarah and i talked for a lil then i was outside with my mom while she talked to this lady..omg..once my mom starts talking..omg..no one can stop her..(now you know where i got it that i talk so much lmao.) you should see the tapes of newyears or christmas..like you see my mom talking..but the other person doesnt..they try..but they stop...they just nod..lmao..talking machine lol..so i go around to get her pissed and i would be like scuse me..mom..do you want a cup of water? ahh good times..good times...anywho then i came home..and went on the comp to keep learning about psp7 and banners and skins..me being a lil comp geek lol..anywho..then sean called..do you want to go to birch? and i was like..i dont think i can..so he was like oh ok...omg i thought it was freakin 9ish or something cuz it was sooo dark...so ya..then i go back on the comp and i see the time..OMG..6:30!!!OMG....HOW SAD..LMAO.. then i didnt want to do more comp geeking so i didnt have anything to do..so i went to straighten my hair..talking to sarah while doing it..then i get this text message..could i see you outside of your house..and omg me freakin out..cuz i was straightening my hair..lmao..so i tell sarah and she's like..are  you going outside? so im like ya i guess me wanna see plus i had to check if we put the mail in the house..so i did i went outside..check the mail box..nothing..said hi to ron..then looked around...then i was going to my drive way..and there i hear a "carolina" dude..heart attack..lmao..good times..then i saw him and i asked my mom if i could go to birch and she said yes..::shocking::left..went to the mall..closed..only department stores open.....went to birch..walked around a lil..went to some stores thingy..left..went back to seans house..chill there for a lil..omg..funny stuffz...went back home..ate some more...went to the comp to continue my psp7 geekness..then aim also..then...watched tv and bed...good long day lmao...with some random shit too..aka..the guy obssesed with the anaconda stuffz..lmao...anywho..g2g..before my mom starts lecturing me about homework and study..lol..omg..this upcoming week..::3 DAYS!!! OMG..WHOOO!!! iight g2g..

luv ya lotz esp.sean.

Carolina..muah

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